LITHUANIAN
QUARTERLY JOURNAL OF ARTS AND SCIENCES
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ISSN
0024-5089
Copyright © 2013 LITUANUS Foundation, Inc. |
Volume
59, No.3 - Fall 2013
Editor of this issue: Elizabeth Novickas |
Shards of One World
For
Valteris Lendraitis (1908-2001)
RIMAS UZGIRIS
RIMAS UZGIRIS is a poet, translator, and critic with a doctorate in philosophy and a MFA in creative writing. He received a Fulbright Scholar Grant in 2013, and was recently awarded a 2014 National Endowment for the Arts Literary Translation Fellowship. He teaches literature and creative writing at Vilnius University.
It must have been the low moan of engines and creaking gears, the treads crushing brush and branch, the volume increasing, groaning, roaring – that terrified you: down in a ditch, with the endless pine trees shielding a cold grey sky, their pungent resin scent drowned in your nostrils by gunpowder, diesel, and blood – your hand gripping the Panzerfaust, the trembling earth.
We
will destroy this world of violence
Down to the foundations, and then
We will build our new world.1
The garden of old age was just a mist in your mind that would slowly creep up over the shifty sand of the Cape, sand that you would turn into loamy soil with tomatoes that could wrinkle a face with flavor, and cool cucumbers sliced thick, lengthwise, and dipped into honey on a hot summer’s day, your grandson watching, looking, learning – under the mixed shade of white oak, black spruce, and red maple – quickened by squirrel fur and the ubiquitous cheeping of birds.
Let us be inspired by
life and love.2
Blinking lights
at the
intersection –
You wonder what
others
will do,
squinting in a tourist’s sun
reflected off the mall
failing to see
the
oncoming car –
No matter.
The river hasn’t stopped
by which you were born.
Even if you change the names,
and all your heirs are daughters,
it hasn’t stopped,
whether or not they have children,
it hasn’t stopped –
It hasn’t stopped
as black
ink
slithers over the page
reflecting
this light
from source to sea –
A child listens before you sleep.
Ið praeities Tavo sûnûs
Te stiprybæ semia.3
Skirsnemunë,
Kaunas, Greiz,
Wundsiedel, Garmisch-Partenkirchen,
Mittenwald, Munich, Boston, Centerville...
Every
flicker of consciousness
into
the cold air
we breathe
into the atmosphere
precipitating
clouds
above
the sidewalk
beside Macy’s Department Store
windows decorated to buy –
Producteurs, sauvons-nous
nous-mêmes
Décrétons le salut
commun.4
You
made ties
in a factory by Kaunas on a river
before the war,
and into it:
The
Russians came.
Communists.
The Germans came.
Fascists.
Lithuanian
heads turned
every which way
and loose.
Lietuva, Tëvyne mûsø,
Tu didvyriø þeme.5
You kept your eyes on the patterns
and forms of the tie weaves
stitched into the machinery,
run by unschooled workers
(the proletariat)
and a seamstress whose brothers
enrolled her
in the
party
was
the obvious choice
to run the factory
by and for
the people.
(But she didn’t know how.)
They soon shall hear the bullets
flying,
We’ll shoot the generals
on our own side.6
You
helped her tame the machines.
Produce. Order the brutish things.
So comrades, come rally,
For this is the time and
place!
The international ideal,
Unites the human race.7
Until
she got the notice
one night
that you must go
go go
away.
She
told you
Out of
thanks?
She told you
Out of
love?
She told you
As a
brother
So
you took
your family and ran.
Your
dog
ran too
beside
the tracks.
Sudie. Goodbye.
Tegul
meilë Lietuvos
Dega mûsø ðirdyse.8
Sprechen Sie Deutsch?
They
asked. You answered.
You received
a shovel.
You
dug
their
trenches
against the tide
against the rising Red
Sea of them.
Deutschland, Deutschland über
alles,
Über alles in der Welt,
Wenn es stets zu Schutz
und Trutze
Brüderlich zusammenhält.9
Conscripted
to dig against
the advancing flood
of people
flowing
like history
red
dead
digging
Achtung!
They are
too close.
So shoot
the tide
Shoot the workers
Shoot your brother
fighting
on the other side
Shoot
your wife’s brother
recruited
from his
flat
in Kaunas,
Litva, SSR.
And end the vanity of nations,
We’ve but one Earth on
which to live.10
You and he
would not meet
again
until the
war was over,
Stalin dead
and Gorbachev on the rise.
Vardan tos, Lietuvos
Vienybë teþydi!11
Jadvyga and the girls had been left in Greiz,
and your journey from the hospital in Denmark had been long, so long
that they were in American hands now.
And you with the Soviets.
Again.
The border was eyes, and teeth,
and grave.
You found a comrade with a common goal:
To penetrate the line in the night.
You said the nurses would be too slow.
You said it’s too risky with them to go.
You were right.
The Soviet soldier gave you the butt of his rifle as a last goodbye.
He must have smelled the German uniform
on your flesh
like sin.
But the nurses dressed your head.
They made you whole.
They made you ready.
Let no one build walls to divide us,
Walls of hatred nor walls of stone.
Come greet the dawn and stand beside us,
We’ll live together or we’ll die alone.12
When you walked into the camp, the DP camp,
that camp of the living
after the war,
how
did you greet her,
your wife, Jadvyga?
How
did you find her? Bent, washing?
Or by the stove? Perhaps
unbuttoned,
feeding
the child you didn’t know?
How did she greet you,
revenant returner?
A hand, a mouth,
a limping buttress
that could support her world?
Together –
Tegul saulë Lietuvoj
Tamsumas praðalina.13
On the way to Ellis Island,
over the flowing road,
over the steel-gray sickness
of the sea
you heard:
No refuge could save the hireling and slave
From the terror of flight, or the gloom of the grave:
And the star-spangled banner in triumph doth wave
O’er the land of the free and the home of the brave.14
You disembarked like rats
funneled through a maze
to exit the exit door
and live among rats
in the tenements
in the factories
worked raw for a piece of cheese.
L’oisif ira loger ailleurs.15
You sent your children to college.
America, the beautiful...16
You made it.
And the rockets’ red glare, the bombs bursting in air,
gave proof...17
With shards of a grenade
embedded in your shin
like Philoctetus
abandoned in the ward
alone among the many
you left –
The river passing,
all individuals within it,
each unstable element
actively
searching for a home
in perpetual motion –
for your wife and daughters,
a shifty Ithaca
of bonds
unbroken
and a dream
in which
land is land, you said
when asked
seated in your
easy chair
by the window
if you missed Lithuania.
Land is land, you said
before going
to cultivate
your own garden.
C’est la lutte finale
Groupons-nous, et demain
L’Internationale
Sera le genre humain.18
November, 2009
Brooklyn